barbies discovery

One late night in my doll-mansion, sitting on my QUEEN sized bed in deep thought of love. Many Kens and G.I Joes have tried to steal my heart, but it's more like they rented it. I needed something real. Well, I donned my my pink couset, sky blue, stoned skinny jeans and those pink Jimmy Choo flats, and finished it off with a pink bow in my curly auburn hair that reached my shoulders. With one last look in the mirror I left the dollhouse in my barbie dream convertable and set off to where ever the wind would take me. I went to the mall, so much for going with the wind, I come here enough. But that's what happens when you depend on things such as the wind. So anyway, I played along, walking into to the mall but I decided instead of taking the normal route, I'd visit some new stores. Taking this detour something in the window of JcPENNY'S. I did a double take. What was this? One slow step at a time i tried to get a closer look. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I was so amazed that I actually paused and stared. What shape, what color, what....perfection. I've had these feelings before but not for something like this! I needed to touch it, get closer, make it mine, I always get what I want. So that's what I decided thats what I was going to do, not caring the cost. I pulled myself together and made my move. I touched her hand said, " I want to steal your heart."

end of semester

well the end of the semester is coming soon and as happy as i am i am just as sad. It was tons of fun being in class with all these wonderful people. I learned alot about college and how this whole adult in school thing is. Though i was told that in college you are just a number to your professors, i feel that i have had wonderful teacher who were understanding to my D.Y.F.S problems as well as the transportation issures i had going on. This is a memorable experienece for me and i can not wait until next semerster to see these people again. I am excited for the summer but I'm even more excited about me second semester. ENJOY and look for my new blod coming soon and inspired by my life as told by me.

Purpose of It's Whatever

You may wonder what “It’s Whatever” is all about. Well it is about my every day, including my crazy past. It also includes my brilliant advice that I have from experiences. Sometimes it is interesting to see the world through the eyes of someone else, someone completely different. It has not been easy for me to get into school and stay there with all the obstacles in my way and I was diagnosed with ADHD so the fact that we were supposed to stay on one topic was completely impossible for me as you can see. There is always so much going on in my mind and I have so much fun in it (my own head) it amazes even me. My mom always said I was someone special because I am so aware of what others are not. But then again your mother has to tell you your special right? Anyway, I love life and I enjoy living it. My daughter has completely changed my way of thinking and even though I was not ready for a baby (who is?) I love the knowledge she has given me. I also gained a lot from my relationship with her father but the bad thing is I learned everything the hard way. So what this boils down to is, I’m trying my best with the cards I was dealt and I’m loving the gamble life brings because if life gives you lemons, write a blog to and let others suck lemons too.

RULES OF LIFE

HEY... you want to know the best ways to get through life? Follow these rules:

REALTIONSHIP:
1. Never start a friendship/ relationship with a lie. You never know how far you are going to get with this person. You might even fall in love and one day the truth will come out.
2. Never get to clingy. In the first few months,THAT MEANS YOU TOO LADIES, DO NOT ASK TO MANY QUESTIONS! For example, " Who was that?", "Where you going tonight?"," Do you love me?", "What do you want this to be?", and "what do you look for in a partner?" The reason for this rule is the wrong questions can mess up everything. If your not serious yet it is none of your business.
3. Keep yourself unavilable. Spend time with him, YEAH, but DO NOT and I repeat DO NOT make yourself avilable for him/her whenever he/she wants.
4. Do nopt over do it. If you really like this person show them the real you cause if you act like someone your not you never know if they will like the real you and you might end up cating for most of the relationship.
HOUSE HOLDS:
1. Listen to your parents NO MATTER WHAT! Yes they may be wrong sometimes or they may bug you to do something but look what they have done for you. Raised you, keep you clothed, sheltered and safe from harm. The least you can do is listen to them because it is not easy raising a child.
2. Cleanliness is next to Godliness. If you practice keeping your parents house clean it is almost 100% that you will bring those habits to your own home one day.
3. TRY not to fight with siblings. I know it is hard but they are the closest friends you will ever have.
SCHOOL:
1. Go! Yes things may stop you, BRING A NOTE. But to just not come to school just because you do not feel like it is just stupid. This is your fututre and to give it a few hours out of the day is not much to ask.
2. Do Homework. It is the best way to study, especially Math. Practice does make perfect. For every 1 hour in class spend 2 hopurs at home studying. It pays off.
3. Avoid Drama. There's no point of it. It can only lead to bad things.

So try my method and see if your life improves
Results may vary.

TO BE CONTINUED

I kno i was supposed to finish that other blog but i get mad at every thought so i think the safee thing to do id to end it there....

DRAMA( can you follow?)

See I went to High School South my freshmen year. I met this boy named jr, or thats what he told me. We started dating, he was new to the area but all the same he wanted to be my BF. SO i gave it a shot. It was my first real relationship. We ended up falling in love (he is the father of my one and a half year old. Well things were great until july of 06. He "cheated" for the first time by going to a club in brick and kissing this girl. Now i wouldnt have found out about it if i didnt go to that same club exactly one week later and heard some girls talkin about this boy named J.R that kissed ebony. So i thought about it for a second and im a smart girl so it didnt take me more than a seconfd to realize they were talkin about my bf. So asked the girls talkin about it, what he looked like and who he was with and low and behold it was indeed him. Funny that he shows up at the club that night and i confonted him. As you can obviously tell nothing happened we got back together. Slowly I kept finding out about girl after girl. But i didnt leave i loved him. HA what i joke. I was so stupid. There was lisa, who he talked to right in front of my face. I KNEW ABOUT HER, BUT LIKE A DUMMY I PUT UP WITH IT. Then there was Katrina, who i had a feeling about because one day his best friend took me him and his little sister to T.R and dropped me off and told me i could go to Angie's ( who by the way was my "friend"?) So i couldnt understand why. I found out Katrina was the only one over there who i didnt know. Thats when my intution kicked in. About a week later i see her myspace and it says " happily taken by edgar." Yea!!!! my edgar......

to be continued

Start your OWN trend

Name brand Shame brand....not everything has to have a popular label on it. I have great style, if i do say so myself, and I don't even think 1/4 of my clothes are name brand. I like to shop at Dots, Joice Leslie, Rainbow, 579, DEBS, and Target. Now if you want to try out a Prep look the best place to go is Dots. Looking for that foreign/ Vintige look, Joice is your girl :) And if you want to go with the "I have my own style, you won't find this on a maniquin" look, then I suggest Target. No one wants to blend in and look like everyone else but there is really nothing that you can wear today that someone else hasn't already worn, so the best advice I can give is make is your very own. Don't think about what people will think becasue at the end of the day your the one wearing it so it doesn't matter what others think. If your confident you can pull anyhting off. When I put together an outfit, i often look for a color that is in there but not very noticealbe, and i bring it out. My accessories (socks, shoes, jewelery, hair bands or belt) will bring out that color the best. It's gotten to the point where someone will say," That outfit is crazy, only you can pull something like that off" Some may even say that doesn't match and my reply is simply, " why doesn't it?" Cause if they're lookiing that close to your attire, you've accomplaished your mission.

A sneak peek at my book

Sorry i couldn't get back to you it's been rough, lets continue.....

I can make your man want to marry you. Even if he's messing up real bacd right now. If you want him to start acting right I have the serect.....Ladies get your notepads out....

See once upon a time I was treated bad by my man. I was the faithful, I'll do anything for you, I know you cheated but let's work it out, kinda girl and he took advantage of me and cheated since 8 months into our realtionship till just last year in March '09. Well I'll tell you what I did, I left. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do but I did it. Not only did I leave I went to Atlantic City, New Jersey, to the Covenant House.( youth homeless shelter) See I sat on this situation for a long time. I had a baby with this man no less and she was 1 day shy of 5 months old when I left. I had given him everything I could give him and still it wasn't enough.

When I made it to the city I didn't know what to do, I was so scared of loosing him but I had to do what was right for me and my baby. As soon as everyone who lived there started to show up I was the talk of the "house". Of course the guys were like wolves but so were the girls. They seemed to have never met anyone like me and I realized, Hey, well damn, what the hell am I crying over this guy? I must be some hot stuff. Soon I had people walking up to me saying " you muct be asiah." I was taking care of my daughter, getting my life together, and I was said to be the hottest thing walking the A.C steets.

It made me forget about him. We were miles away, all the attention was on me and I could what ever I wanted cause he wan't around. I know you knew it was coming, I found a new love and my baby's father hated her and she hated him....haha. Never the less he saw what he was missing. I stopped taking his calls, dissing him, avoiding him, acting like I didn't care. It killed him to see I didn't give a crap about what he said did or wanted.

Results may vary.
Side effects include: Stalking, Major or minor guilt, Violence, distruction of property, vurbal abuse and broken heart.